points to ponder

I received my kerygma mailed newsletter last Monday and its only today that I had the chance to read everything. I am always amazed by how God usually taps my shoulder in every way possible... church homilies, emails, movies/shows that I watch or books that I read... Like these texts that I read through today...

" If you aren't succeeding, be magnanimous enough to accept defeat and retreat. Forgive yourself for your mistakes, for things you should have done and didn't do, for what you said and should't have said... Go to confession, ask God for pardon and He will pardon you..."

"Then change your gameplan. In other words, change the things that are making you a failure-- bad habits, negative thinking, or plain and simple laziness.."

Next, recharge. Draw strength from God's word, from elders and trusted friends who can help you sort things out and relieve you from your stressors."

Then, when you've fully recovered, you can go back to the battlefield of life and fight your good fight..."

I can't help but reflect on this... Admittedly, I am still hurt by a number of events that happened in 2006. I leave everything to the Lord as I ask now for forgiveness, strength and guidance...

Jp started renovating the rooms in his house... for us... for Kyle :) We had our weekly dinner date last night .... We talked about how our week went in the office, our wedding plans, room interior , business start-ups and his plan of getting us a big family car hahaha & my requested huge dresser ... We do not really agree about every topic that we get to discuss but this I must say makes our bond well, well, well... Yes, I am falling in love with this man over & over for the past three years... He knows very well how to treat me fairly... like a princess (but definitely not the spoiled one :D) I must say that his principles and rules in life compliments what I truly need and want.

We are getting married in 2008 and I was never this certain in my life. Jp is the man that I am willing to offer my life to... I want to grow old with him & take care of him.... Cook his favorite food and prepare irresistabel desserts for him... fix his tie ... watch dvds with him... and grow fat with him hehehe :D

Surprisingly, I really do exist in her life aftel all ... She said she didn't care much... I really don't think so :D How can you put so much time and effort minding my life up to this date!?

Sorry honey ... I've moved on and people like you is not worth keeping... nor remembering...

I've forgiven you along time ago ... and I would really appreciate if you would just mind your own business... =S

finally back =D

I'm back :) Finally after almost a quarter of not being able to conditionally write well... I am finally back :D Christmas is fast approaching and I am just so excited about a lot of things...

My papa is coming home for Christmas :) I am very happy that family is complete this year to celebrate Christmas. I am excited...I got myself a new digicam so I can take photos of this season's events & activities :D I took a leave from work so I can spend time with my family this Christmas. I would want to make the most out of it since I will be getting married soon.

And speaking of that... My parents is finally meeting Jp's dad before the year ends. Well, I am not quite sure if I would consider this as a formal pamamanhikan already .. I guess not... especially that my future mom-in-law would surely want something really perfect & extraordinary for our wedding...

We are planning to spend Christmas in Manila this year & New Year in Ilocos. For the past 2 years, I spent the New Years in Tagaytay with Jp's clan. I brought my brothers with me of course. This year, I hope (fingers crossed) to be with Jp on Christmas Day. I mean us... me and my family. I hope things will go well with my mom so I can tag her along with us. It will really be meaningful...
Jp's family & my family together on Christmas... just exactly how I wish things will be in the future after we get married.

Uh, I wont be too excited because i dont want to spoil it... Wishful thinking for now... :)

Next week is Jp's birthday :) Again, I am stressed out because I cant think of a gift to give him... He has everything already... I guess I will end up bringing him to one of the resto-pool that i've hunted... Sssshhhh...

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New Years 2005 w/ my brothers & Jp's family in Tagaytay. :)














New Years 06 .. with my future family :)

My last post was hurting and my life for the past weeks beacame very very meaningful. Both happy and sad, I came to realize so many things. My constant argument with my mom led to so many significant and unexpected events... Inspite of everything... I still love her.... Like what I have written in the past... I sincerely pray for peace....

I am amazed how God makes us realize that HE exists... that He is always there especially when we are in sorrow... On the event of my boyfriend's proposal came other event that really broke my heart into pieces. A confession... I wouldn't want to write what happend because along with the promise I made to myself, I promised my mother that things will never change and that I will not dwell on it. I am tired. I am exhausted. I am hurting.


I hope to write exciting post after this blog...

My wedding preparations maybe, will be more interesting than any other dramas...

away and hurting

Seoul, Korea
ItaewonDong
4pm

Im away from home ... FINALLY . My two weeks was good ,bad and frustrating . My engagement happened and my happiness was incomparable. Everyone was very happy and excited for me. My friends, my brothers, Kyle, and my future in-laws. My mom on the other had reacted differently. As I was expecting it... she was unhappy. Not because I am getting married but because I disobeyed her. I chose a man that she less prefer for me..and I left a man that she unreasonably want for me. For the second time around in my life, she was again trying to interfere with my life's decision. With my happiness. For material and selfish reasons that she had dreamt of.

I dont want to write details here because it is very hurting. I want peace. That was my last message to my mom.

I left the Philippines hurt...and I caught myself crying in the plane while trying to get some sleep. How's that? I was supposed to be celebrating and enjoying my engagement. But my mom deprived me to be so. AGAIN.

I texted Jp the other night and apologized for whatever is happening now. He was very positive and supportive the whole time. He texted me back and said that everything will be alright. That when we get married..everything will be alright. Him, me and our futire togther. I know he was sincere enough when he said that. He has proven enough. More than what i've expected. That - probably this is happening now for some good reason later on. Yes, I still believe that things will work out eventually.

I love the feeling after the hurt is gone...

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Another reason to be happy and excited? I am going to start preparing for my wedding soon. Even if it is a year away :D I know I will have good time preparing. My future mother-in-law is very excited and so is my bestfriend who is in the states right now. Even more excited that I am ! haha!

I am excited to go home because me and Jp's mom prepared a party for Kyle =) It is his 7th birthday! It will be a Pirates of the Carribean party and everyone will have to wear their costumes. I'll post pictures next week.


Bohol! Bohol! I am excited :) I am going to Bohol on the 26th this month and hopefully at that time...I will be leaving peacefully compared to my Korea trip now.(crossed fingers)

I am praying for that... sincerely...

ironically.. i was the one surprised :D

October 10, 2006
Galileo Enoteca
8- something

Jp: happy anniversary again babe ....
this is what i've always wanted.... marry me ....











My mobile phone beeps around 1130 ... I just finished my shower and I am about to sleep...
message from jp:
That ring shows that there's only one thing I want... to spend the rest of my life with you...Happy anniversary baby...and more to come... I love you very very much....









One man whom I want to spend the rest of my life with ... :)

eventFULL October

Overwhelmed with work ... thats how I am now... I just found out today that I will be sent to Korea on the 17th for another business trip. I have other planned activities for the rest of the month and finding out about this new addition is really hitting my head and my heart.

It's Kyle's 7th birthday on the 13th and unfortnately its a weekday so he'll be in school & I will be at work.. sad =( i'll make up sweetie... I promise...

I have something plannned already but then again, can I just blog about it when its done? I cant help it! Boy, I am just so excited hehe!

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On the contrary I am excited about something else.. its our 2nd year anniversary today =) I plan to surprise Jp .... a dinner in a cozy Italian restaurant... a place he will never discover on his own =D

sheeesh...

I remembered the priest's homily 2 Sundays ago...

I survived ... we survived... and still surviving...
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love you baby ...

" great minds discuss ideas, average minds discuss events, small minds discuss... people"

" THE BUSY MIND CANT DISCUSS EVIL THOUGHTS "

tin... tin ... never spoil the moment just because you are frustrated ... sheesh... PMS haha!

" I long for you...as much as you do ..."
" Im saving even the smallest amount that I can so I could marry you soon... I hope you understand that what I am doing now is for you... for us... for our future. I want to marry you soon"
" I've been having sleep disorders lately and the only time that I get good rest is when you are with me ... so how can you say that I dont long for you?"
" I feel that you always see wrong things in me... the things that I do, the things that I do not do, the things that I say..."
" if its not working for you then you better tell me"
" im working very hard so we can have a good future"
"I love you... so much"

I am almost done with the first season of LOST and I have 2 targets! entourage and grey's anatomy =) cant wait to run to the video store for my DVD copies!!!

I'm sad... I lost my yonex racket last saturday when I went to play badminton at clubsixfifty. It was my first ever good racket actually...not to mention that it was quite expensive...=( I went back to check on it, hoping that some angel soul would have surrendered it to the admin,but as expected " only in the philippines" -- my racket was gone.

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I was with my friend rein & Jp's officemate- Rica earlier that afternoon. We went to check Vieux Chalet in Antipolo. I've been meaning to see the place for about 4 years already. hehe! I ordered their famous lemongrass iced tea... refreshing! it tastes really good =) I had this dessert ...Mango Flambae topped with vanilla ice cream... a must try!

( will post pictures tommorow! I left my usb at home and I couldn't upload the pics today)

I went there for an ocular... Yes, ocular. Dont ask me why =D I'll tell you more after the 10th tho =)

Just trying to be a little romantic...

A happy feeling... of being in love over and over again...

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I had some exchange of words with a (supposed) good friend. Why? Misunderstanding, I guess. I dunno. I was meaning purely business & work though. I've always wanted to help friends and colleagues by all means, but of course I can only do so much. And there are some things beyond my control already. So I hope that situations like this will not be taken against me.

I meant well...

I just had to say it...

Things will never be the same again...

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My regularization papers were released today! At least, something good happened to compensate a headache. It was too soon for me to get stressed and harassed. I still have five days of work to deal with =D

I got my increase! yipee! =)

I got my Medical Results! everything cleared ! hehe!

I can treat myself to Lapids Chicharon later tonight! haha! =P

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Oh... MONDAY!!!

vacation!vacation!

Im excited!!! I'm scheduled to go to Bohol & Cebu last week of October. Yipee! Vacation! Vacation! Will be with people from the office =) We're done finalizing our itinerary today and looks like the trip will really be worth it =D

Obviously, I am that excited !hehe!

I am writing it down now....

But on a second thought... Will just post pictures later on when get back after my trip... =)

18 days to go... im excited =)

two weeks ...

no nothing...

work...

badminton...

good book...

my cup of tea...


Im going out with my bestfriend, Marielle tonight after about a month of not joining her gimmicks. Well, she's been out partying since last month and I really couldnt stand the noise anymore. I am too exhausted with work that I would prefer a more peaceful place She usually says ,im getting old... maybe I am :S

Friday nights...

Restless...

"the world is not perfect because of love"

" One of the things that make us happy is when we love and are loved. Life is a continuing effort at loving others and experiencing love in return for love always seeks expression. Yet when the person who is loved does not return the love that we express, when our love is unrequited, our love sometimes turns to hatred ...."

desperate housewives

One thing good about long weekends!? you will finish your stocked up dvds at home! Finally! I managed to finish second season of desperate housewives! Forgive the drama addict in me !


This one's a combination of drama, thriller and mystery... there's a comedy part too! ( but definitely nothing like the classic F.R.I.E.N.D.S. series)




For the fun of it, I took this test in Desperate Housewives official website!!!

http://abc.go.com/primetime/desperate/quiz/index.html

My test result is similar to that of Susan's character! oh my ! Oh my! Is that good or bad? but I remembered when I started watching the first season, I told a friend that I wanted to be Susan! The only reason then was that I found her pretty and sexy for a mom of a teen-age girl (julie)...

Now, I came to realize that maybe I am a bit of HER... because somehow I dont wanna be like Bree, she is very stiff and boring, so prim and proper... Lynette, on the other hand is ok but she seems to be disorganized most of the time... Especially during the first season when she was still a stay-home mom. She failed to fix herself ( one thing i think is very important even if you are married), she's most of the time harassed and stressed out.Oh I really hope I wont end up like her. (She was my 2nd choice though, hehe) And lastly never would I want to be Gabrielle... she didnt want babies ( even of her own) ,she slept with her gardener etc., tsk she should have chosen to be single forever right? Susan on the other hand is a single mom who was able to raise a very independent and responsible child. She makes mistakes sometimes ( esp in finding her true love) , But more than any of the characters, I must say that her story is more realistic than than the rest.

Ok sorry I didn't actually plan to make long blog about this series. I got carried away hehe...

Too much.. too much...

I bought 2 seasons of LOST last week ! Im gonna watch it soon =)

never enough

Weekend this time is both good and bad for me. Defined hectic, I must say. Friday and Saturday, I had to attend 2 separate seminars in Makati. It was ok because it is an additional learning on my part. It is actually a 4-week course that my company sponsored for me and I really feel lucky for that privelege. On the other hand, it was not so good because I was required to attend on Saturdays and it was a whole day thing. Meaning I only have Sunday as my rest day supposedly. But being a woman who values time for her family and loved ones, I needed to think of ways on how to maximize my Sunday and at the same time be able to do the things that I want to do for myself. Saturday night, I met up with former co-workers from Globalstride even if I was all tired. My hub and I had dinner in Eastwood before that and I felt relaxed just being with this one special man in my life. Even if I do most of the talking & kwento or the bullying?! hehe ( can I just mention again that he is really a quiet person). We were both tired beacuse of a very busy week at the office. Its been a routine actually. We work our ass' off on weekdays and spend quality time on weekends (at least). That I really demanded... because I thought that weekend is the only time that we can really sit down and have a good talk over a sumptuous dessert (sorry but not the usual coffee or tea). I know people would agree to me whe I say that communication is really important in one's relationship.
So there, the group had the usual dessert at coffe bean & tea leaf ...and ended up in Countryside Katipunan Ave., for a very very yummy barbeque. The night ended and I went to bed feeling so full and bloated because of that two dinners that I had. Satisfying yeah? =) how I really wished my man was beside me the whole night to hug me while I sleep... but I cant be lucky enough... =(
Sunday, I woke up early even if I was sleepy bacause I promised my adorable Kyle that I wll bring him to timezone. I know he will feel bad if I will not keep my word. He can be frustrated at times just like me =p I also went with my mom to check on this Ralph Lauren bag that she's been eyeing.. of course there I was trying to brainwash her a bit from buying that bag ...that was hell expensive!!! Lastly, I also went with mico, my brother to buy his lacos shoes and chuckies.... I was tempted to buy my own pair of pink pumas as well =) We ate lunch at Gerry's in Promenade and again I went home bloated hehe =) One thing that I enjoy doing with my family... eating!

All of us took our afternoon nap when we got back home. We were very very tired. I was planning to get a massage after dinner but I chose to meet up with my man instead. We drove to tiendesitas to buy my cocoa tablets ( I was opting to make my homemade chocolate drink ).For the remaining half an hour, we decided to hang out at his place, cuddle and get charged by a warm hug for another week of work.

Ooh, I couldn't wait patiently for another weekend. I miss my family.I miss my man. I miss my bed.

I can be impatient at times.

Fast forward please.

Saturdays & Sundays are never enough... never.

third wheel

I went out with 2 of my very good friends friday night. I had fun but it could have been much better to see them togeherher again. Yes... together again. My besfriend marielle, and another friend Leejay became officially together sometime in 2004. I was very happy for them... especially for my bestfriend because it was ( I really feel sad I had to us the word "was" ) her first official relationship. They were very happy. I saw it. No pressure among themselves. But of course no relationship is that perfect. They needed to experience their own piece of challenge. The "negative forces" outside their relationship. I wouldn't want to write full details why they had to let go of each other for now since its not my own story to tell. I know they love each other and I want them to get back together ( my fingers crossed =D)...because I saw how happy they were being around each other's arms... =)


Thats me and my good friend Mar, we had our dinner at MYLK in Greenbelt... It was supposedly a "girls night out" =) I had my own stories to share... because my week was a major stress!!! work, parenting, relationship expectations, marriage (yikes).. in fact i dont think friday night was ever enough when im with her. she is the only person i can really talk about anything! everything!

She didnt know I asked her ex to join us that night!!? I wanted to surprise her... yeah I know she's been proving me that she's ok and better but I dont care!!! "pakielamera" ako eh haha! I want them to see each other =) Actually I knew Leejay missed her so as a friend... i did my part =)

So for the night, im officially "third wheel"! its fine , i'd rather be the third wheel for that night than have mar around being the "third wheel" for the rest of my married life!!? hehe (peace mar!) =p







ok now who doesn't want them back anyway? :P


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blurry

Friday, July 28... he called out of nowhere...

" my dad just called asking me if im getting married" .... oh , ok and why is he asking?

" i dont know,nangungulit lang siguro! hehe" , "and he asked how how you are and he asked how's my job... i said everything is doing ok , we both fopund better and more stable job,..."

" baby when mo ba gusto mgapakasal?"

so in love!!!!

hey friends! im addicted to this page!!!! i browse through it almost everyday ... tsk! tsk! im dying to go and try out all these sweet treats!!! =)

http://dessertcomesfirst.blogspot.com/
www.dessertcomesfirst.com

wish- a- wish-a -wish... =)

I've been wanting to have a "real" vacation with my hub :D i know we both need to de-stress! haha =) If time & my work skeds would allow us both then... I have listed 2 of my dream getaways in mind.... *wink* Have more more more on my list but I guess i'll save that.... for future plans and events hehe =)

Meantime, this is where I want to go before the year ends =) If im lucky enough & the good heavens will hear me out, then I want to go October this year =) If not, i'll probably squeeze some from my budget and go by myself.... a very good time to relax, rejuvenate & have the whole world to myself even for one day =)


1) The Farm at san Benito (Mt. Malarayat, Lipa City, Batangas)
www.thefarm.com.ph




2. Nurture Spa (Tagaytay City)
www.nurture.com.ph

ON AGING WELL

18 secrets to aging well
LIVING ALIVE By Dero Pedero
The Philippine STAR 08/01/2006

You have two ages: your chronological age and your biological age. Your chronological age is your true calendar age and there’s nothing you can do to change it. Your biological age, on the other hand, reflects the state of your body. You may be 50 chronologically yet still be 40 biologically if your body is well maintained.

Want to look and feel youthful, and age fabulously? Here are some down-to-earth tips to make you feel and look your best no matter what your age.

Age Is A Lifestyle

1) Have a positive attitude. Experts say that having a positive attitude is probably the single most important factor for a long and happy life. But it is not enough to think positive; you must do, act, and feel positive. See the light when there’s darkness and smile to rise above your sorrow.

2) Be enthusiastic. A powerful ingredient that will surely fire up your life is enthusiasm. When you are enthusiastic (or just pretend to be), you will attract amazing things your way. Be ebullient, vivacious, and lively. Expect the best but at the same time, be ready for the worst.

3) Be inspired. Always strive for things that inspire you. Find inspiration from God and nature, learn from successful people, and engage in activities that fuel and charge you. Follow your dreams, find a new challenge, learn a new hobby, and appreciate beauty and virtue.

4) Eat fresh, whole foods. Your body is a machine that needs to be fed for energy and strength. Be judicious and careful about what you eat. Say no to junk foods and stick to fresh, unprocessed natural foods that give you power and vitality.

5) Exercise regularly. Follow an exercise regimen to keep your heart healthy and your body fit and in shape. Aim for flexibility, strength, and endurance. To add fun and avoid boredom, participate in sports and vary your workout. Exercise with friends to keep you motivated.

6) Exercise your brain. Your brain needs to be given a workout, too. If you don’t use it, you’ll lose it. Learn something new every day, read books and publications, and solve stimulating puzzles to keep it sharp and competent.

7) Get enough sleep. Getting quality sleep gives your body a chance to rest, recharge, replenish, and repair. It allows your brain to file and sort out your memories, hopes, and dreams. A good night’s sleep always refreshes and gives you energy to be at your best the next day.

8) Be a "people person." Shift your focus from "I, me, myself" to "you, them, others." This will take your mind away from your flaws and insecurities. The more joy you bring to others, the more joyful you will be. Establish a social support network; keep old friends and make new ones.

9) Avoid stress. Stress is the No. 1 cause of disease; in fact, stress can kill you. Hurrying through life can be stressful and aging. Check your limits and slow down when you need to. Be mindful of your activities and live in the moment, and you will enjoy life much more.

10) Hydrate. The body is 75 percent water so you must hydrate it regularly. Drink plenty of water and juices especially on hot, humid days. Water helps your body flush out toxins and keeps your skin supple and youthful.

11) Protect your skin. The skin is your body’s outer "clothing" and people judge your age by it. To keep it healthy and looking its best, protect it from the harsh sun with a sunscreen and from the elements by dressing appropriately. Dry skin ages prematurely, so use a good moisturizing lotion daily.

12) Simplify and organize your life. Life is complicated; simplify. Know what really matters to you so you can spend your time and energy rightfully. Why agonize when you can organize? Being organized helps simplify your life.

13) Think young. You are as young as you think. Be open to new things and ideas. Be adventurous and open-minded. Don’t be afraid of technology; learn and use it to your advantage. Understand young people. Dress a little younger than your real age.

14) Have fun, laugh, and be happy! When you die, the first thing God asks when you come face to face with Him is, "Did you have fun?" Life can be problematic and dreary; it is your duty to keep yourself happy and entertained. Most importantly, laugh and be healed!

15) Have a higher life purpose. Most people live insignificant lives because they stay on the basic survival plane. Those who live magnanimous lives and leave an unforgettable legacy are the ones who pursue grand, noble, and heroic missions.

16) Use medicine and cosmetics to enhance your life. Avail of modern medicine to improve and prolong your life. Experiment with beauty products and cosmetics. A little makeup magic can enhance the way you look. When you look good, you will feel good about yourself.

17) Be in love. You were born to love and share. The only meaningful love is the love you give away, and the only love you can really use and keep is love from someone else. Establish meaningful relationships and put the glow of love in your life.

18) Breathe well. Above all, breathe deeply and pleasurably. Breath is the body’s ultimate food. You can live without real food for 40 days, but you die in minutes when deprived of air. Most of us have put our breathing on automatic; gain control of it once more. When you have control over your breath, you have control over your life.

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i still miss him everyday... for the past 765 days...

@ work

Working for three years now, i've realized a lot of things about life and work. I've always wanted to become my own boss....no time-ins, no 9-6 schedules to deal with, being responsible for your own deadlines. But I guess, man can't really be lucky enough to always get what he wants at an instant. I am now working as Business Development Executive in a Marine Travel Company. I am enjoying my work because of all the travel perks that I am getting, not to mention the free hotel meetings during meeting of course! =) I like my work now because of the people I work with -not everyone of course because there will always be "negative forces" wherever you are, but I am pleased that I have ate mhel, our accountant whom I eat my hearty lunch with everyday; carmela who runs to me everytime she is paranaoid about her relationship or better yet if we just want to talk about "kikay " stuff hehe, our messangers who never fails to tease me and make me laugh whenever I passby their area,my boss & miss joanna, for the words of wisdom and new things that I learn everyday ... Simple things that make my life in the office not-so- much of a boring day at work. I love my job for the simple reason that I am continuously learning a lot . I know the everyday challenges will help me be a better person =)

My first ever job was a CS Rep in a Call Center in Eastwood City. For about a year, I survived working the whole night taking calls, repeating my spiels about a hundred and five times I guess! Yes, I admit it wasnt my dream job at all... but I am very much thankful for if not for that job, I wouldn't be where I am now, I wouldn't be able to pay kyle's lawyers and tuition fees, I wouldn't be able to value time, money and relationships.I met and valued co-workers who became my friends even outside the office... baccay, rodney, peejay, ted, dhes, joanq, sheree, rhovee, reinier, justin & vina, drei,kats and others ( sorry for those I wasnt able to mention anymore!!!)And how can I forget? Globalstride is where I met jp =)

My second job NEXC is an on-line advertising & recruitment company located at The Fort. Everything is good there except that the salary was always delayed.That was the primary reason why I resigned.I opt not to rant about it anymore hehe. Secondary was the experience and challenge that I expected from the company. I wanted a job where I will be out to meet people,build a network and learn. As a Sales Executive, I just felt incomplete carrying the job title yet I was all day sitting in front of my pc waiting for emails.Our clients for mostly Americans and Asians so our communication were mostly on-line. But dont get me wrong. I learned new things while working there. Sure I miss everyone from NexC! Jasmin, Tarah, Weng, Rj,Kuya Alex and yeah our boss Josef Paier who was passionately workaholic ! Oh, Ate Liana and Leni also who left before I even resigned. My 6-months experience with the team was a memory to keep. We were all young and motivated =) I must say all of us wanted more!

After NexC, I landed on an advertising/Web Developer Company in Makati (Traffic Power). I was hired as Account Manager for cities-newsnetwork. I stayed for 3 months because again the SALARY was unreasonably delayed!!! And the DELAY was even WORST. Can you just imagine that the 15th pay was somtimes given on the 28th? How can that be if you have bills to pay,family to feed and a life to fullfill?!! It was annoying and frustrating!!! Whats with these Foreign Bosses who we thought would give better opportunities to us Filipinos? I realized NO, they were the one taking advantage putting up their businesses here and hiring Filipinos beacuse labor cost is defenitely way lower...and not even being considerate enough about their employees' welfare.(Except for call centers because they really have good incentives) Okay too much of that! I know I shouldn't be that affected anymore beacause I had my way out but I just cant help but feel annoyed up to this day.... Two weeks back, I was informed that there was a retrenchment from that office. The company had to let go of about 70-80 % of their Operations Department ...right on the spot! On that same day that they announced that they were having a retrenchment...And the reason...the company is going through a rough time.... Poor people who sticked with them all along.... I am pissed because they had to let go of my former team as well =( I feel sad because I know how reliable and responsible these people were. And of course, I had to ask myself...if I didn't decide too soon, will I be be one of them?

When I said, I loved my job now -I meant it... In my younger years, I always dreamt to travel and see the world. I didn't have that much opportunity to do so with my family because 1) my parents are not really into it , 2) my dad works abroad so he prefers to come home in the Philippines for vacation. I even wanted to take up Tourism or International Studies for college just because of the idea that i will get the opportunity to travel (lolz). My dad was negative about it because he said working as an FA is like working as a server in a restaurant-only you are on a plane. ( no offense to FA friends, he only meant well for his daughter). Going back, it wasn't planned at all ...that i'll be working in a travel industry. From all the other 3 jobs that I had, this one is different. But I love it. And I promised myself that I will do well... not for my boss, not for Regent...but for myself...

And yeah i'd still want to be my own boss.... that is why I have tubbycakes on the side.... and maybe a food kiosk in the mall, a parlor or clothes store would do later on... *wink*

When was the last time you saw God in all the simple and ordinary things of your life?

45 QS

Another one of those surveys...

Whats your name spelt backwards?
enitsirk

What did you do last night?
cooked dinner for my brothers & kyle :) (had breaded pork chop, crab&corn soup and beef stir-fry )

The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
pictures :)

Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?
nope

Last time you swam in a pool?
last February 2006 @ edsa shang

What are you wearing?
floral designed polo and jeans

How many cars have you owned?
none from my own pocket , its my parents'

Type of music you dislike most?
jazz baby! and bossa nova ...

Are you registered to vote?
yep

Do you have cable?
none at the moment... no one really stays at home because i go to work & my bros go to their schools as well... but im considering applying for one ...

What kind of computer/s do you use?
hp

Ever made a prank phone call?
yep

You like anyone right now?
yes

Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
any other choice? i dont think i can do any of these 2....

Furthest place you ever traveled?
Philippimes: Davao City

What's your favorite comic strip?
archie's

Do u know all the words to the national anthem?
the Philippine National Anthem, yeah

Shower, morning or night?
both

Best movie you've seen in the past month?
Pirates of the Carribean.... coz its funnnyyyy!!

Favorite pizza toppings?
pepperoni & cheese

Chips or popcorn?
chips

What cell phone provider do you have?
smart & sun cellular

Have you ever smoked peanut shell?
NOPE

Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
buwahahaha

Orange Juice or apple?
orange juice

Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?
my officenmates, ate mhel & maybelle

Favorite chocolate bar?
guylan chocolates and hershey's milk chocoalate

Who is your longest friend and how long?
marielle from college.... naomi,abad,lanz,jom from hs....

Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
have no idea

Have you ever won a trophy?
yeah

Favorite arcade game?
i forgot the name... sorry

Ever ordered from an infomercial?
nope

Sprite or 7-UP?
rootbeer (haha)

Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?
school...yes.... office? soon...i guesss

Last thing you bought at Walgreens?


Ever thrown up in public?
nope

Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?
can i jus be both? haha ! but id love to meet my one true love... anyways, i can work
hard enough to earn money :p

Do you believe in love at first sight?
no, its just merelu an attraction.... it will have to take more time for you to say that it is love

SPONGEBOB OR JIMMY NEUTRON?
spongebob ..because kyle watches spongebob more than jimmy neutron

Did you have long hair as a young kid?
yes until now

What message is on your voicemail machine?
no voicemail sorry

Where would you like to go right now?
have a stress-free weekend getaway with my baby :) im fine with our local san benito or nurture spa.

Whats the name of your pet?
used to have BIZKIT...

What kind of back pack do you have, and what's in it?
no backpack... i know i should have one ;)

What do you think about most?
happy moments in my life :)

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the one that got away

Meeting someone unexpectedly in an unexpected time ... I woke up this morning feeling really weird why I had to dream about him ... again. I said again because it didnt happen only once but I dreamt about him ... about us... for a couple of times the past months..the past years... sigh
Mar!my bestfriend, im sure you will laugh out loud once you read this blog!!! :p but oh yeah I still cant help but giggle everytime I reminisce about that looong "October" event in my life. Long enough for me to say that yes, it was indeed a memory. I was at peace at that time. No worries, no nothing!

A good memory...

back in 2003...

it was almost perfect...

but I had to let go...

maybe he was not ready...

maybe my heart wasn't either...

I guess it wasn't really meant at all....

for the fun of it :)

I got this from another bloggers page and just for the fun of it... I'll answer them myself :) hmm, reminds me of that gradeschool autograph book that we used to answer during class ... :p

Name 3 Schools You Went To:
Holy Spirit School
Holy Spirit Academy of Laoag
Thames International Business School

Name 3 Things In Your Wallet:
atm card
my ids
moneeee

Name 3 Things You Always Wear other than clothes:
accesories/jewelries
my watch
sunblock

Name 3 Things You Do When You Are Really Stressed:
get a massage ( i have to ! i swear! )
talk to my hubby
ask kyle for a big hug

Name 3 Favorite Songs Right Now:
** got a lot on my list, but in a senti mood... then I would listen to :
if i keep my heart out of sight - james taylor
let's stay together - al green
that's all - rod stewart

Name 3 Favorite Places To Shop:
MANGO
Forever21
tiangge baby!

Name 3 Places You Go To On A Daily Basis:
office
office
office

Name 3 Things You Like To Do:
dine out with loved ones
watch my dvd series
shopping!!!

Name 3 most valuable possessions:
my mobile phone
letters & other memorabilias from mu hubby
collection of photos

Name 3 favorite fruits:
Strawberries
Lychee
Green Mango

Name 3 things you are addicted to:
sweets
coffee & tea
hugs & cuddles

Name 3 fave things to snack on:
chocolates
coffee / strawberry ice cream
cheetos

Name 3 favorite hobbies:
reading
watching dvds
cuddles

Name 3 career choices:
a business owner
traveler
wife

Name 3 goals in 2006:
attend this retreat in ateneo
start living a healthier life
save more more moneeeee

Name 3 plans for next week:
finish my desperate housewives dvd (2nd season)
prepare flyers for my tubbycakes business
get my nails done over the weekend

Three Names You Go By:
Tin
Tintin
Baby - haha! not by everyone of course!

Three Parts of Your Heritage:
Filipino
Ilocano
Kapampangan

Three Things That Scare You:
really big dogs
goons- looking men -haha
carnival rides


Three of Your Everyday Essentials:
coffee
soap free wash
good morning & good night greetings from my loved ones :)


Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
my turtleneck white top
jeans
comfy sandals

Three Things You Want in a Relationship (OTHER THAN Love):
undying romance haha!
sweet talks
quality time

Two Truths and a Lie (in order):
i want to get married at 26
i am very much in love
i am lying now!

Three PHYSICAL Things about the Opposite Sex that Appeal to You:
eyes
hair
skin color

Three Places You Want to go on Vacation:
Local...since I dont think I really have the time to go out of the country...
La luz
Nurture Spa
The Farm at San Benito


Three things you want to do before you die:
get married & have a baby girl :)
travel around the world
own a business

i had to learn

Yesterday was proven my unlucky day. I know I promised myself that I will only be blogging happy thoughts here but I just can't help but feel really really bad. So forgive me... just for today, I will have to do ranting on this page...

To start my story, my first ever project with Regent was to come up with a homepage. Of course, my priority were the web designers that i've worked with in my previous job. I had my reasons: one- I juts want to help them in my own little ways, two- personal , meaning I just assume that they could be more reliable and "just" more than the people that I barely know and lastly - it comes out cheaper somehow. So there, I contacted a few of my former co - workers to give me a quotation and present me a proposal for our website. With not so much ado, I decided to get Andy , a former staff when I was working with Traffic Power as CNN Account Manager. True for a fact, I was aware that he was not that good compared to the other three web designers that I spoke with. Well, I had my reasons why I had to do so. He was about to get married at that time and so as expected the "emotional tin" decided to give him that project for a little financial help. But of course, I didn't tell him that! So the website was started, I gave him all the materials need ... pictures, copies ,etc. And he got paid full of course. Two months after, we had a little problem in the office because we needed to do an upgrade on our webspace which affected our emails. I had to ask him for the after-service assistance for Regent which is supposedly part of his contract anyway. Day 1, day 2, day 3 , I was texting him and sending him emails and I was so pissed that i didn't get any reply from this guy. One thing I hate about people! Worst is that my local phone kept ringing because the outlook/email problems had been stressing out the operations. Ok, on day 4, I gave up. I texted him and I was mad already. I told him to give me a date on when he can have this fixed and were done...as bad as it can be,still he did not reply. So I texted him and I told him that I was very disappointed because he was very unreliable. Imagine, it was just 2 months and yet he showed how hard it is if I am to deal with him for the rest of the year? So I had to cut off my losses. I couldn't afford to stress myself nor be responsible for his lame work attitude. so if the problem is not being able to reach this person then I muight as well look for somebody else who can do work better. I have my obligations to my boss as well, you know. I had to find my own means to survive. I contacted Allan, a Senior Web Developer ,who used to work for the same company. Initially I had to confide if my reaction was right or if I was just overreacting. I showed him the contract , told him the detailed incident, the texts and even some of the emails. This is not to ruin Andy's reputation but more of - I wanted to know if I was reasonable enough to get pissed about the situation. He said - I was. Aside from being a friend ( used to be -as of last night!), Allan said it was very unprofessional of Andy to treat me that way, to treat his clients that way. I asked allan if he can offer me maintenance and update services for the website. He said yes only if he will be allowed to redesign the site. He said he didnt want to maintain a webpage which is not actually his work. And understand why. So we agreed,Allan will redesign our website ...for free!!! ( God is so good! ) I only have to pay him for the updates and maintenance of the site. And in return of that favor, I will be referring his services to our clients. So, I was relieved. I thought that problem was solved not until last night....

I received a text message from Andy asking me what was Allan's problem and he also said that he was able to prove how unethical I am. The nerves! Was it me? or him? I called him to clear things out. The wife answered and she had to interfere! She was actually freaking out! She was talking for about 10mins! If I may say :"dakdak ng dakdak"! I asked her to hand his husband the phone because I dont have anything to do with her. The wife said that she was the one who made the contract so shewas claiming she knew what happened. Ok! I am not gonna step down to her level. I waited for her to stop even if I was so "giiiiigilllll" already. When Andy finally gathered his guts to take my call- I said my piece. I said that it was so gay of him to ask his wife to intervene. I am really pissed at that time! I stated my reasons why I had to get rid of him in the first place and I hope that for the nth time he was able to realize why. Lastly I told him that -that was the first and last time that I will have to talk to him about that issue. I had enough.

I had to learn a lot from that. I know it was partly my fault because there was a personal relationship concerned when I decided who to get. It was my bad after all. Good thing there were people who unexpectedly showed up and were kind enough to offer me help. I am very thankful. Next, my OM just called and she asked why I looked sad. Even if I wanted to forget about it, I had to tell her what happened. She gave me wordsof wisdom which I will keep in mind. She also told me that I did the right thing anyways so I might as well forget about it. She even congratulated me for being able to deal with the situation. Lastly, everyone loved the redesigned website!!( www.regettravel.com.ph ) It was after all a blessing in disguise! The outcome was better, I must say!

I had to learn... It was afterall , a happy thought :)

After this blog, I promised myself that I will not anymore talk about what happened. I will no longer answer any text messages from that guy nor tell anyone what happened. I want to forget about it. A bad dream.

coffee, rain, quizmeme...

Oh yeah, I took this personality test today and look what i got :D

Tin, your love personality type is INFJ


As an INFJ, people who appreciate high quality will usually notice you. Intuition and emotion are your type's strong suits. As a result, your sensitivity and adept communication skills can almost immediately put people at ease. You aren't the kind to overwhelm people with senseless babble. You'll usually prefer to be a good listener. Those around you can often sense this integrity. They may even implicitly know that they can trust you without you having to say a word. Chances are that your insights have helped any number of people during their time of need. In relationships, your warm personality helps you to quickly forge deep personal bonds with others. Easygoing and harmonious, you tend to dislike petty arguments and are usually very forgiving of minor transgressions.

another one!!! my poohpersonality :)

I had a few of these personality tests today. Well, at least something's up to amaze me on a very busy day!!! :) Its been raining outside, classes were already suspended since yesterday. This is one of the few reasons why I miss being a student myself. Allowances, perhaps a little too much of those "free time", late night parties ! and oh yeah, long breaks of course!

Now that I am already working, my life's been a routine. I wake up 7am everyday, get dressed and kiss my kyle goodbye :) When I get to the office, my first stop after logging-in would be the coffee maker. Yep! coffee has been a great friend since I started working back in 2004. I just love cappucinos and caramel machiattos simply because they are my ever loyal companions while working all day.They do keep me up and ironically makes me feel relaxed at the same time. And just recently , Philippine's very own "barako" coffee has been my everyday
favorite.Thanks to my boss and Miss Joanna, our Office Manager for a cheaper yet better tasting coffee. :)

The rain is not as bad anymore... And hopefully tomorrow's weather is going to be much better. While composing this blog ,im actually up to taking these intriguing personality quizzes as well. Just for today, i'll enjoy this "self-realization" mode . You see, i've been receiving this kinds of emails from friends the past weeks. But I used to ignore them , forward them to friends or delete them! ( sorry friends! if you were one of those who sent me this kind of emails )I wasn't really patient enough to go through the process and besides, I was quite busy the past weeks. Ok! im kinda eating my word now because somehow, I realized it could be fun !:) especially on a rainy day when you could have been home... sleeping...

Im going now! oh! not going home this time... I gotta go attend this meeting with a Korean Guy... Oohh, im back to ...repeating my sentences twice ,thrice or more for us to understand each other better. Hmmm, like my first ever out of the country trip in Korea early June... which I will be posting soon btw... byee :)

just for today...

Its raining for how many days now. And with this kind of weather, I just want to laze in my bed and watch my collection of dvds or better yet - - get that warm hug from my hubby ...

If and only if... that would be possible... whoa! its more like I- am -just - daydreaming -now. Truth is, I am in the office working, inspite this cold weather and continuous rainshowers. I just had to take a short break from what I was doing because I wanted to "destress" myself . Yes, it helps being able to write something here. It makes me think of something else other than all the Marketing Plans & Strategies that I have to finish for the office.

So for today, I had more "free time" to manage my folders, clean up my files, and chat with good friends. I said "free time" because alas! I have no deadlines to beat this week! No seminars, no meetings, no papers to finish... I am just so happy that I can take control over my schedule this time.

I was chatting with a very good friend for about 3 hours earlier this afternoon. There was so much to talk about ... Well, it was. It was months ago when I last spoke to this person. We had our own share of stories to tell. And oh yeah, mine was really a BIG share!

Ok, just now we were allowed to go home! You see how bad the weather is! I'm going home now.... Nice... I can go home and laze in my bed and watch my dvds.... and oh, I would love to have that warm hug from my hubby.... only if im lucky enough today!!! :P

where to begin...

i have been reading some blogs of other people for quite sometime now.... from close friends and acquaintances down to the blogs of people i dont even know... not because i want to peak through their lives but simply because I find their blogs interesting... yes, i do... and it has been a habit for about a couple of weeks now!!! :p

when i was younger i used to write my own stuff... in a diary of course... and now i just feel excited that once again i can start writing my thoughts... it helps a lot...nah, i am not so much of a good writer...not at all... but i am a very sentimental person... i spend time putting words into letters to express how i feel for my dear ones...

surely my blogs will be purely happy thoughts... :) none of those bad issues not worth remembering... well, that's how i want it to be... for these blogs are memories for me to keep in my heart... *wink*