Sunday, July 30, 2006

i still miss him everyday... for the past 765 days...

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

@ work

Working for three years now, i've realized a lot of things about life and work. I've always wanted to become my own boss....no time-ins, no 9-6 schedules to deal with, being responsible for your own deadlines. But I guess, man can't really be lucky enough to always get what he wants at an instant. I am now working as Business Development Executive in a Marine Travel Company. I am enjoying my work because of all the travel perks that I am getting, not to mention the free hotel meetings during meeting of course! =) I like my work now because of the people I work with -not everyone of course because there will always be "negative forces" wherever you are, but I am pleased that I have ate mhel, our accountant whom I eat my hearty lunch with everyday; carmela who runs to me everytime she is paranaoid about her relationship or better yet if we just want to talk about "kikay " stuff hehe, our messangers who never fails to tease me and make me laugh whenever I passby their area,my boss & miss joanna, for the words of wisdom and new things that I learn everyday ... Simple things that make my life in the office not-so- much of a boring day at work. I love my job for the simple reason that I am continuously learning a lot . I know the everyday challenges will help me be a better person =)

My first ever job was a CS Rep in a Call Center in Eastwood City. For about a year, I survived working the whole night taking calls, repeating my spiels about a hundred and five times I guess! Yes, I admit it wasnt my dream job at all... but I am very much thankful for if not for that job, I wouldn't be where I am now, I wouldn't be able to pay kyle's lawyers and tuition fees, I wouldn't be able to value time, money and relationships.I met and valued co-workers who became my friends even outside the office... baccay, rodney, peejay, ted, dhes, joanq, sheree, rhovee, reinier, justin & vina, drei,kats and others ( sorry for those I wasnt able to mention anymore!!!)And how can I forget? Globalstride is where I met jp =)

My second job NEXC is an on-line advertising & recruitment company located at The Fort. Everything is good there except that the salary was always delayed.That was the primary reason why I resigned.I opt not to rant about it anymore hehe. Secondary was the experience and challenge that I expected from the company. I wanted a job where I will be out to meet people,build a network and learn. As a Sales Executive, I just felt incomplete carrying the job title yet I was all day sitting in front of my pc waiting for emails.Our clients for mostly Americans and Asians so our communication were mostly on-line. But dont get me wrong. I learned new things while working there. Sure I miss everyone from NexC! Jasmin, Tarah, Weng, Rj,Kuya Alex and yeah our boss Josef Paier who was passionately workaholic ! Oh, Ate Liana and Leni also who left before I even resigned. My 6-months experience with the team was a memory to keep. We were all young and motivated =) I must say all of us wanted more!

After NexC, I landed on an advertising/Web Developer Company in Makati (Traffic Power). I was hired as Account Manager for cities-newsnetwork. I stayed for 3 months because again the SALARY was unreasonably delayed!!! And the DELAY was even WORST. Can you just imagine that the 15th pay was somtimes given on the 28th? How can that be if you have bills to pay,family to feed and a life to fullfill?!! It was annoying and frustrating!!! Whats with these Foreign Bosses who we thought would give better opportunities to us Filipinos? I realized NO, they were the one taking advantage putting up their businesses here and hiring Filipinos beacuse labor cost is defenitely way lower...and not even being considerate enough about their employees' welfare.(Except for call centers because they really have good incentives) Okay too much of that! I know I shouldn't be that affected anymore beacause I had my way out but I just cant help but feel annoyed up to this day.... Two weeks back, I was informed that there was a retrenchment from that office. The company had to let go of about 70-80 % of their Operations Department ...right on the spot! On that same day that they announced that they were having a retrenchment...And the reason...the company is going through a rough time.... Poor people who sticked with them all along.... I am pissed because they had to let go of my former team as well =( I feel sad because I know how reliable and responsible these people were. And of course, I had to ask myself...if I didn't decide too soon, will I be be one of them?

When I said, I loved my job now -I meant it... In my younger years, I always dreamt to travel and see the world. I didn't have that much opportunity to do so with my family because 1) my parents are not really into it , 2) my dad works abroad so he prefers to come home in the Philippines for vacation. I even wanted to take up Tourism or International Studies for college just because of the idea that i will get the opportunity to travel (lolz). My dad was negative about it because he said working as an FA is like working as a server in a restaurant-only you are on a plane. ( no offense to FA friends, he only meant well for his daughter). Going back, it wasn't planned at all ...that i'll be working in a travel industry. From all the other 3 jobs that I had, this one is different. But I love it. And I promised myself that I will do well... not for my boss, not for Regent...but for myself...

And yeah i'd still want to be my own boss.... that is why I have tubbycakes on the side.... and maybe a food kiosk in the mall, a parlor or clothes store would do later on... *wink*

When was the last time you saw God in all the simple and ordinary things of your life?


Sunday, July 23, 2006

45 QS

Another one of those surveys...

Whats your name spelt backwards?
enitsirk

What did you do last night?
cooked dinner for my brothers & kyle :) (had breaded pork chop, crab&corn soup and beef stir-fry )

The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
pictures :)

Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?
nope

Last time you swam in a pool?
last February 2006 @ edsa shang

What are you wearing?
floral designed polo and jeans

How many cars have you owned?
none from my own pocket , its my parents'

Type of music you dislike most?
jazz baby! and bossa nova ...

Are you registered to vote?
yep

Do you have cable?
none at the moment... no one really stays at home because i go to work & my bros go to their schools as well... but im considering applying for one ...

What kind of computer/s do you use?
hp

Ever made a prank phone call?
yep

You like anyone right now?
yes

Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
any other choice? i dont think i can do any of these 2....

Furthest place you ever traveled?
Philippimes: Davao City

What's your favorite comic strip?
archie's

Do u know all the words to the national anthem?
the Philippine National Anthem, yeah

Shower, morning or night?
both

Best movie you've seen in the past month?
Pirates of the Carribean.... coz its funnnyyyy!!

Favorite pizza toppings?
pepperoni & cheese

Chips or popcorn?
chips

What cell phone provider do you have?
smart & sun cellular

Have you ever smoked peanut shell?
NOPE


Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
buwahahaha

Orange Juice or apple?
orange juice

Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?
my officenmates, ate mhel & maybelle

Favorite chocolate bar?
guylan chocolates and hershey's milk chocoalate

Who is your longest friend and how long?
marielle from college.... naomi,abad,lanz,jom from hs....

Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
have no idea

Have you ever won a trophy?
yeah

Favorite arcade game?
i forgot the name... sorry

Ever ordered from an infomercial?
nope

Sprite or 7-UP?
rootbeer (haha)

Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?
school...yes.... office? soon...i guesss

Last thing you bought at Walgreens?


Ever thrown up in public?
nope

Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?
can i jus be both? haha ! but id love to meet my one true love... anyways, i can work
hard enough to earn money :p


Do you believe in love at first sight?
no, its just merelu an attraction.... it will have to take more time for you to say that it is love

SPONGEBOB OR JIMMY NEUTRON?
spongebob ..because kyle watches spongebob more than jimmy neutron

Did you have long hair as a young kid?
yes until now

What message is on your voicemail machine?
no voicemail sorry

Where would you like to go right now?
have a stress-free weekend getaway with my baby :) im fine with our local san benito or nurture spa.

Whats the name of your pet?
used to have BIZKIT...

What kind of back pack do you have, and what's in it?
no backpack... i know i should have one ;)

What do you think about most?
happy moments in my life :)

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

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the one that got away

Meeting someone unexpectedly in an unexpected time ... I woke up this morning feeling really weird why I had to dream about him ... again. I said again because it didnt happen only once but I dreamt about him ... about us... for a couple of times the past months..the past years... sigh
Mar!my bestfriend, im sure you will laugh out loud once you read this blog!!! :p but oh yeah I still cant help but giggle everytime I reminisce about that looong "October" event in my life. Long enough for me to say that yes, it was indeed a memory. I was at peace at that time. No worries, no nothing!

A good memory...

back in 2003...

it was almost perfect...

but I had to let go...

maybe he was not ready...

maybe my heart wasn't either
...

I guess it wasn't really meant at all....

Friday, July 14, 2006

for the fun of it :)

I got this from another bloggers page and just for the fun of it... I'll answer them myself :) hmm, reminds me of that gradeschool autograph book that we used to answer during class ... :p

Name 3 Schools You Went To:
Holy Spirit School
Holy Spirit Academy of Laoag
Thames International Business School

Name 3 Things In Your Wallet:
atm card
my ids
moneeee

Name 3 Things You Always Wear other than clothes:
accesories/jewelries
my watch
sunblock

Name 3 Things You Do When You Are Really Stressed:
get a massage ( i have to ! i swear! )
talk to my hubby
ask kyle for a big hug

Name 3 Favorite Songs Right Now:
** got a lot on my list, but in a senti mood... then I would listen to :
if i keep my heart out of sight - james taylor
let's stay together - al green
that's all - rod stewart

Name 3 Favorite Places To Shop:
MANGO
Forever21
tiangge baby!

Name 3 Places You Go To On A Daily Basis:
office
office
office

Name 3 Things You Like To Do:
dine out with loved ones
watch my dvd series
shopping!!!

Name 3 most valuable possessions:
my mobile phone
letters & other memorabilias from mu hubby
collection of photos

Name 3 favorite fruits:
Strawberries
Lychee
Green Mango

Name 3 things you are addicted to:
sweets
coffee & tea
hugs & cuddles

Name 3 fave things to snack on:
chocolates
coffee / strawberry ice cream
cheetos

Name 3 favorite hobbies:
reading
watching dvds
cuddles

Name 3 career choices:
a business owner
traveler
wife

Name 3 goals in 2006:
attend this retreat in ateneo
start living a healthier life
save more more moneeeee

Name 3 plans for next week:
finish my desperate housewives dvd (2nd season)
prepare flyers for my tubbycakes business
get my nails done over the weekend

Three Names You Go By:
Tin
Tintin
Baby - haha! not by everyone of course!

Three Parts of Your Heritage:
Filipino
Ilocano
Kapampangan

Three Things That Scare You:
really big dogs
goons- looking men -haha
carnival rides


Three of Your Everyday Essentials:
coffee
soap free wash
good morning & good night greetings from my loved ones :)


Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
my turtleneck white top
jeans
comfy sandals

Three Things You Want in a Relationship (OTHER THAN Love):
undying romance haha!
sweet talks
quality time

Two Truths and a Lie (in order):
i want to get married at 26
i am very much in love
i am lying now!

Three PHYSICAL Things about the Opposite Sex that Appeal to You:
eyes
hair
skin color

Three Places You Want to go on Vacation:
Local...since I dont think I really have the time to go out of the country...
La luz
Nurture Spa
The Farm at San Benito


Three things you want to do before you die:
get married & have a baby girl :)
travel around the world
own a business


Thursday, July 13, 2006

i had to learn

Yesterday was proven my unlucky day. I know I promised myself that I will only be blogging happy thoughts here but I just can't help but feel really really bad. So forgive me... just for today, I will have to do ranting on this page...

To start my story, my first ever project with Regent was to come up with a homepage. Of course, my priority were the web designers that i've worked with in my previous job. I had my reasons: one- I juts want to help them in my own little ways, two- personal , meaning I just assume that they could be more reliable and "just" more than the people that I barely know and lastly - it comes out cheaper somehow. So there, I contacted a few of my former co - workers to give me a quotation and present me a proposal for our website. With not so much ado, I decided to get Andy , a former staff when I was working with Traffic Power as CNN Account Manager. True for a fact, I was aware that he was not that good compared to the other three web designers that I spoke with. Well, I had my reasons why I had to do so. He was about to get married at that time and so as expected the "emotional tin" decided to give him that project for a little financial help. But of course, I didn't tell him that! So the website was started, I gave him all the materials need ... pictures, copies ,etc. And he got paid full of course. Two months after, we had a little problem in the office because we needed to do an upgrade on our webspace which affected our emails. I had to ask him for the after-service assistance for Regent which is supposedly part of his contract anyway. Day 1, day 2, day 3 , I was texting him and sending him emails and I was so pissed that i didn't get any reply from this guy. One thing I hate about people! Worst is that my local phone kept ringing because the outlook/email problems had been stressing out the operations. Ok, on day 4, I gave up. I texted him and I was mad already. I told him to give me a date on when he can have this fixed and were done...as bad as it can be,still he did not reply. So I texted him and I told him that I was very disappointed because he was very unreliable. Imagine, it was just 2 months and yet he showed how hard it is if I am to deal with him for the rest of the year? So I had to cut off my losses. I couldn't afford to stress myself nor be responsible for his lame work attitude. so if the problem is not being able to reach this person then I muight as well look for somebody else who can do work better. I have my obligations to my boss as well, you know. I had to find my own means to survive. I contacted Allan, a Senior Web Developer ,who used to work for the same company. Initially I had to confide if my reaction was right or if I was just overreacting. I showed him the contract , told him the detailed incident, the texts and even some of the emails. This is not to ruin Andy's reputation but more of - I wanted to know if I was reasonable enough to get pissed about the situation. He said - I was. Aside from being a friend ( used to be -as of last night!), Allan said it was very unprofessional of Andy to treat me that way, to treat his clients that way. I asked allan if he can offer me maintenance and update services for the website. He said yes only if he will be allowed to redesign the site. He said he didnt want to maintain a webpage which is not actually his work. And understand why. So we agreed,Allan will redesign our website ...for free!!! ( God is so good! ) I only have to pay him for the updates and maintenance of the site. And in return of that favor, I will be referring his services to our clients. So, I was relieved. I thought that problem was solved not until last night....

I received a text message from Andy asking me what was Allan's problem and he also said that he was able to prove how unethical I am. The nerves! Was it me? or him? I called him to clear things out. The wife answered and she had to interfere! She was actually freaking out! She was talking for about 10mins! If I may say :"dakdak ng dakdak"! I asked her to hand his husband the phone because I dont have anything to do with her. The wife said that she was the one who made the contract so shewas claiming she knew what happened. Ok! I am not gonna step down to her level. I waited for her to stop even if I was so "giiiiigilllll" already. When Andy finally gathered his guts to take my call- I said my piece. I said that it was so gay of him to ask his wife to intervene. I am really pissed at that time! I stated my reasons why I had to get rid of him in the first place and I hope that for the nth time he was able to realize why. Lastly I told him that -that was the first and last time that I will have to talk to him about that issue. I had enough.

I had to learn a lot from that. I know it was partly my fault because there was a personal relationship concerned when I decided who to get. It was my bad after all. Good thing there were people who unexpectedly showed up and were kind enough to offer me help. I am very thankful. Next, my OM just called and she asked why I looked sad. Even if I wanted to forget about it, I had to tell her what happened. She gave me wordsof wisdom which I will keep in mind. She also told me that I did the right thing anyways so I might as well forget about it. She even congratulated me for being able to deal with the situation. Lastly, everyone loved the redesigned website!!( www.regettravel.com.ph ) It was after all a blessing in disguise! The outcome was better, I must say!

I had to learn... It was afterall , a happy thought :)

After this blog, I promised myself that I will not anymore talk about what happened. I will no longer answer any text messages from that guy nor tell anyone what happened. I want to forget about it. A bad dream.



Wednesday, July 12, 2006

coffee, rain, quizmeme...

Oh yeah, I took this personality test today and look what i got :D

Tin, your love personality type is INFJ


As an INFJ, people who appreciate high quality will usually notice you. Intuition and emotion are your type's strong suits. As a result, your sensitivity and adept communication skills can almost immediately put people at ease. You aren't the kind to overwhelm people with senseless babble. You'll usually prefer to be a good listener. Those around you can often sense this integrity. They may even implicitly know that they can trust you without you having to say a word. Chances are that your insights have helped any number of people during their time of need. In relationships, your warm personality helps you to quickly forge deep personal bonds with others. Easygoing and harmonious, you tend to dislike petty arguments and are usually very forgiving of minor transgressions.

another one!!! my poohpersonality :)





I had a few of these personality tests today. Well, at least something's up to amaze me on a very busy day!!! :) Its been raining outside, classes were already suspended since yesterday. This is one of the few reasons why I miss being a student myself. Allowances, perhaps a little too much of those "free time", late night parties ! and oh yeah, long breaks of course!

Now that I am already working, my life's been a routine. I wake up 7am everyday, get dressed and kiss my kyle goodbye :) When I get to the office, my first stop after logging-in would be the coffee maker. Yep! coffee has been a great friend since I started working back in 2004. I just love cappucinos and caramel machiattos simply because they are my ever loyal companions while working all day.They do keep me up and ironically makes me feel relaxed at the same time. And just recently , Philippine's very own "barako" coffee has been my everyday
favorite.Thanks to my boss and Miss Joanna, our Office Manager for a cheaper yet better tasting coffee. :)

The rain is not as bad anymore... And hopefully tomorrow's weather is going to be much better. While composing this blog ,im actually up to taking these intriguing personality quizzes as well. Just for today, i'll enjoy this "self-realization" mode . You see, i've been receiving this kinds of emails from friends the past weeks. But I used to ignore them , forward them to friends or delete them! ( sorry friends! if you were one of those who sent me this kind of emails )I wasn't really patient enough to go through the process and besides, I was quite busy the past weeks. Ok! im kinda eating my word now because somehow, I realized it could be fun !:) especially on a rainy day when you could have been home... sleeping...

Im going now! oh! not going home this time... I gotta go attend this meeting with a Korean Guy... Oohh, im back to ...repeating my sentences twice ,thrice or more for us to understand each other better. Hmmm, like my first ever out of the country trip in Korea early June... which I will be posting soon btw... byee :)

just for today...

Its raining for how many days now. And with this kind of weather, I just want to laze in my bed and watch my collection of dvds or better yet - - get that warm hug from my hubby ...

If and only if... that would be possible... whoa! its more like I- am -just - daydreaming -now. Truth is, I am in the office working, inspite this cold weather and continuous rainshowers. I just had to take a short break from what I was doing because I wanted to "destress" myself . Yes, it helps being able to write something here. It makes me think of something else other than all the Marketing Plans & Strategies that I have to finish for the office.

So for today, I had more "free time" to manage my folders, clean up my files, and chat with good friends. I said "free time" because alas! I have no deadlines to beat this week! No seminars, no meetings, no papers to finish... I am just so happy that I can take control over my schedule this time.

I was chatting with a very good friend for about 3 hours earlier this afternoon. There was so much to talk about ... Well, it was. It was months ago when I last spoke to this person. We had our own share of stories to tell. And oh yeah, mine was really a BIG share!

Ok, just now we were allowed to go home! You see how bad the weather is! I'm going home now.... Nice... I can go home and laze in my bed and watch my dvds.... and oh, I would love to have that warm hug from my hubby.... only if im lucky enough today!!! :P





Tuesday, July 11, 2006

where to begin...

i have been reading some blogs of other people for quite sometime now.... from close friends and acquaintances down to the blogs of people i dont even know... not because i want to peak through their lives but simply because I find their blogs interesting... yes, i do... and it has been a habit for about a couple of weeks now!!! :p

when i was younger i used to write my own stuff... in a diary of course... and now i just feel excited that once again i can start writing my thoughts... it helps a lot...nah, i am not so much of a good writer...not at all... but i am a very sentimental person... i spend time putting words into letters to express how i feel for my dear ones...

surely my blogs will be purely happy thoughts... :) none of those bad issues not worth remembering... well, that's how i want it to be... for these blogs are memories for me to keep in my heart... *wink*